I wish..

*this is a really nice picture :D

I really wish things were like before,

like how it was supposed to be,

but I came to realize

that things change,

nothing is permanent,

and there's nothing we can do about it

but move on...

Natasha

Change can be scary..

but life goes on..

Time flies, and yes, again,I've not been updating

, but like anybody checks anyway..Today, I went to CF and Ps. Alexa was the guest speaker, she talked about how life isn't fair. Indeed it isn't, but if so is God not fair then since he created life?

No,

because life is NOT God,

so God is still fair in the end..

So many things have happened and yes, change can be very scary..but in the end, nothing lasts forever, except God's love of course.

I read in twitter just the other day

'People hold on to memories because that's the only thing that doesn't Change '

and that is so true, people often live in past glories and in the end, don't improve from where they were and in the end, never get anywhere..

it's scary to see the one you thought you always knew, change into someone else, and it's even scarier to see how much I have changed..

I can sometimes be so high, happy and full of myself, but yet sometimes be so down and depressed thinking that people's perspective of me will change anytime..

If you had a chance to look inside my mind, you would see how messed up my thoughts are, sometimes, i don't even understand why I'm like that..

Changes happen everyday and in my opinion, the only thing we can do is to change our perspective of that situation and make lemonade out of lemons.

I, for one, do not like changes, especially drastic, negative, unwanted, unexpected changes, but it's bound to happen and I guess it's the thing that makes life interesting. I can't imagine how it would be like if everything rotates around routine work, life would be so mundane and boring, but easy though! heh! I get bored of something easily and it's actually scary to see how fast I do! Then again, i'm always waiting and wanting for something different, better to happen, changes for the better, myself to change, (and that's hard) but i guess everything has it's pros and cons. In the end, we should always do something to

Change lives, change the world!

Changes, good or bad are going to happen whether i like it or not so I'm going to face everyday with new hope, knowing that while everything else changes,

God doesn't.

i wonder why blogger do not have any other fonts, these fonts are so boring :C

My mind always turn blank when I start to blog so I'm so sorry for the short post.

hmmm..

I shall girly-fy this blog by showing you the things i do

when my mind flutters away while studying...

spot the purple nails!

look, even my physics book are still left unopened!

<3

Pimples!! *gasp*

I'm too lazy to photoshop them, so wtv..

all the self obsessed pictures..*guilty* haha

I'm soooo weird!!!

hah..but I know I'm not the only one like that Xp

don't tell me you don't do that too..hehe

Exams ends in 4 more daysss~!! and I can't wait!

till then,

Natasha <3

:D

I have such great friends!! :)

it's been so long since i last blogged but don't complain, at least I'm blogging now no? I honestly have nothing to write about, but for the sake of updating, i just shall.

Recently, I've made a twitter account, yeah, thanks to Joanna. I honestly dont understand this twitter thing. Firstly, it makes stalking so much easier, of course you can still private your tweets, but then again, why would i want to tell the whole world what I'm doing? not like they would be interested in any way. or maybe it's just me. besides, I'm no celebrity. I sound like a hypocrite, saying what's the point of twitter but yet having one? ok, nvm bout that...

Exams are so far away, and i don't feel like studying now, although i should since i have nothing else better to do. Today, i'm stuck at home with no where to go. I so wish I can drive!!! *1 more year Natasha, 1more loooooong year..* It has been 1 month and 2 days since I've turned 16, but it doesnt seem to me that I have changed much, have I? I should be more mature, throwing away all my childish thinking, and start to think more like 16 year old. Stop having crazy mood swings which i seriously hate about myself cause they're so annoying, to me, and it annoys others, causing people to think that I'm annoying and it just annoys me to think that i annoy others... haha..ok, ignore that, I'm just crapping out nonsense here. Besides, no one else reads my blog so hahaha, i can write anything i want here without worrying about what others will think. Besides, it's MY blog, i can write anything i want!! hahahahah, and there's no one to stop me!! *evil laugh*

that paragraph up there just proves how bored and crazy I am. I should stop now...

Sunshine,

Natasha C=

Random : I have the same number of fingers on both side of my hands.

It's funny how I can act so differently at a different kind of comment. Like, hmm..if someone said to me :" hey Natasha, you can sing really well!" My reply would be: " nah...you're praising me too much." BUT, on the other hand, if someone said sarcastically :" You can sing?" My reply would be :" Who says I can't?"
Notice how differently I act at these two situations? It seems like I have two different sets of personalities, which isnt exactly good....right? I'm weird.

Anyway, that was totally random. I shall write about anything that goes through my mine now.

hmm...I have a bittersweet feeling towards my holidays. Holidays are the only time where I can sleep in and laze around and watch all the tv I want(not like there are any programmes on)and facebook all I want, but then again, it would be so boring and unproductive, I'll use my spare time eating and sleeping which lets just say isn't very healthy. So, to like or not to like the uneventful holidays?

Oh, and I realised, that I can be really really very unlucky at times. It's like everything I touch spoils. Just that day, when i was using the modem, it just stopped working halfway. And then just a few days later, the computer could not start when I tried to on it although it was working perfectly well 5 minutes ago when my brother was using it. Oh, and then my phone became cacated just yesterday, not receiving any sms or calls whatsoever, leading to a mob of angry friends. Well, not exactly a mob, but they were angry. =( and then there's the printer, once long time ago...and the television..and the..no more actually. but still.. oh well, it works now =)

Random facts:
1) it always is nice talking to Vanessa after a long time.
2) Chocolate taste best when licked off fingers.
3) I laugh for apparently no reason at all sometimes.
4) Pi is the ratio of the circumference and its diameter.
5) An apple a day keeps the doctor away, or so they say.
6) I do not eat the century egg because once, when i was young, someone told me that the reason it is black is because they marinate it in horse's urine. and yes, I was that dumb to believe it, even until now...
7) I'm only 15 +, not in my twenties.

Ignore this post.

ok, enough of my random nonsense. I have nthg to write about.

xoxo,
Natasha

Taggy tag.

50 Little Secrets.
Be honest no matter what, then tag at least 10 friends. (NOT going to tag)

01. Who was your last text from?
Shen Deng, about the easter event thing..

02. Where was your default picture taken?
In the TaiPing old shophouse

03. Your relationship status?
single and unavailable=)

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
yes

05. What is your current mood?
happy

06. How many siblings do you have?
1, but it seems like 10

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Nathaniel Tay

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
somewhere cooling and serene and fun.

09. Have a crazy side?
yes

10. Ever had a near death experience?
maybe

11. Something you do a lot?
Sad to say, complaining too..

12. Angry at anyone?
No

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Nothing, I don't want to

14. When was the last time you cried?
Forgotten

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yes

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
about how my day went

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Bryan

18. What is your favorite song?
Oceans will part, or is it You and me? too many..

19. What are you doing right now?
this tag?

20. Who do you trust right now?
True friends.

21. Where and when did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Ai Ling gave it to me.

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
No

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
er..the twins?

24. Describe your life in one word?
contentment

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
no one.

26. What should you be doing right now?
my moral project

27. What are you listening to?
the cars going by outside, my brother screaming, sound pollution..

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
my brother

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
my brother, how ironic

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
I think I do.

31. What is your natural hair color?
Black, but it gets brown at the damaged/split ends part.=(

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Vanessa

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
my brother, more of angry really..

34. What do you hear?
Don't know

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
Slightly curly

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
er..no.

37. Do you have a best friend?
Yes

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
No

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Yes...=)

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes

41. Are you happy with life right now?
Happy enough

42. Are you currently jealous?
no

43. What jewelery are you currently wearing?
none

44. What were you doing on friday night?
Today is Friday

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
maybe, i'm not sure.

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
yes.

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
forgotten

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
12am, i was doing the Easter flier *excuse*

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
No

The Woods

Hello again!!

I just have to say that I'm really proud of myself for updating my blog..er..more often now? :) Anyway, I guess I'm going to write about what I did.

I've finished reading the book "The Undomestic Goddess",by Sophie Kinsella. It was quite a nice one really..

Today, I went for a walk with my uncle to the forest behind his house. It was AWESOME!! The sceneries there are beautiful! Walking down the path, hearing the dry leaves crumpling under my footsteps, enjoying the awesome sceneries of the countryside, with the morning breeze softly blowing my hair and the sunshine shining down on me, I wish I could stay like that forever, well, besides the chilling weather and my freezing hands. But still, it was awesome!

haha..doesn't this tree looks familiar?

*hint*church bulletin

There's much more pictures, but I'm to lazy to post them up..

Later that night, I went to a church event of my uncle's. The event was called the Game Show Night- Just In Time I think? It was quite fun actually, I even got a prize!! It was based on these raffle ticket thing, and then when they call your number, you'll have to go up and answer the question they give you, and if you answer it correctly, you'll get the prize.

So as I was holding the number 160, suddenly, the MC of the event called out, one sixty, I was so shocked! and well, if you knew me, you'll know that I wouldn't want to go up, but under my uncle's persuasion, I just decided, why not?

ok... I'm starting to sound like I'm writing an essay to pass up to my teacher...I'll just get straight to the point. So in the end, I answered the question, and yes, I won a prize, which was a cup filled with chocolates. :)

After that, we went home, and my uncle gave me a tour around central London, which was amazing. The colourful street lights and all...maybe I'll go there another day.

:)

I just finished playing Wii!! It was my first time playing it, and it was definitely fun! especially the Wii fitness thing, they even have yoga in it!! haha..it is even funnier to see others playing it!

I wonder when Calyn is ever going to invite me to her house to play Cooking Mama on her Wii..

*Jia yin, can you please help me tell her when she sees this? thank you :)*

Natasha

London

lalala...I'm in London now!!! Whee!! It's soooo cold here..


My journey here was 13 whole hours of boredom, no entertainment no nothing...i mean, what can you expect from Air Asia right? I officially hate sitting on airplanes already, especially long hours ones, or maybe it's just Air Asia? ok...enough critisizing Air Asia, despite the uncomfortable, smelly seats, hardly edible food and overpriced souveniers and snacks, I should be thankful that I'm able to have a chance to fly to London, all expense paid right? =)


Anyway, I think i'm over the jet-lag period, considering I didnt even sleep at all in the plane, because of my sleeping problems lately, I can't sleep at all even if it's at the wee hours of the night, but what can I do? If anyone has an effective sleeping method, please do not hesitate to tell me :)
Ok..what am I writing?! Nevermind that...


I went to grocery shopping with my aunty today, its not much of a difference there than Malaysia..except that day always check your goods at the entrance before you leave. I saw a worker's name tag, on it written was his name, (obviously) but spelled as ***uvey***. How do you actually pronounce that?


I guess I'll just spend the remaining of my time reading...I can't actually go out,maybe tommorow..


I guess I'll go back to reading now...
Dreams are what your heart wishes..

Natasha